G-Spot horror story

The plot

There was a heated discussion amongst my colleagues in the office one day, about the existence of the male g-spot.

Obviously, there was really no clear point on the discussion, it was all just some perverted way (by someone) to past the time over lunch break....

The guys even suggested that there was a wiki document out there, detailing the actual location of the male erogenous zone.. I obviously have to see it for myself, although, I flatly (or shall I shall I say, disgustedly...) dismissed that such an article does not (or should not) exist at all, let alone be documented in Wiki...

Homophobes be warned

So, just for argument's sake, I did go into Wikipedia and hit the search button for the text criteria "male g-spot" which landed me here, nothing really new there....

Then I thought that since I was out on the web anyway, I'd try hitting a search on google for the same text, and came across this rather disturbing forum entry, from an obviously "happy" guy giving a "blow by blow" instruction about "stimulating" the supposed male g-spot...

All I can say was, "what the god-damn fuck!?!!?!", while read the first few lines hitting ALT-F4 after about 3.75 seconds into the article....

Unfortunately though, I'm a fast reader, and basically got a "lot" of unwanted information off with those 3.75 seconds I now, regrettably spent reading that shit of an article...

My life, I can now say, will be forever scarred at this point... I'd probably end up old and broke paying for therapy with the traumatic experience...

The damage, in my case, will be irreversible...

*AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!

For what it's worth, I want to leave you, kind readers with this trivia, in a futile attempt, wash off all that filth you most definitely would be needing Doctor Phil's therapy from later on....

Trivia: Can you find where this "hottie's" g-spot is?

Vicious cycle

I always try to put some sort of explanation to any shit that happens... After all, shit does happen, right?

Sure, I also, mostly, jump to conclusions, initially, but then, my more "mature" side always kicks in, which would then start me off on the process of logically assessing the situation, culminating with me drawing up either a scientifically conclusion, or form of assumption based on deductive reasoning...

Coming back to my point (and I promise I do have one this time!)... If there's one thing that I dislike about myself is the fact that I often times go against what I preach... I mean, I am calm, logical, and reasonable when it come to addressing matters affecting other people.

But, when shit comes my way... I turn completely opposite!

Be that as it may, I am sort of a reactive Eddie, never really backing down on any point, until all the fumes past, and I'm all by my self...

Often, I would find myself disengaged after a conflicting event, just reviewing what I would've done better at that time. In the end, I'd formulate some sort of resolution, and start telling myself that "this is what I'm going to do next time this shit happens again..."

Next shit happens, guess what? Same routine... I'd be bitching, biting, exaggerating, mostly because I either:

a) don't care about no damn resolution
b) Just really not understanding the point of being logical at that time
c) I'm almost always right anyway, so why bother analyzing the shit?

Which obviously brings me back to where I started with this... So, I want to put the question out there and ask - "Is this thing normal?"

I mean, if there is any shrink out there who could give me free advise, I urge you, for the love of god, help me resolve this already cause its getting too damn old!

Those were the days, my friend....

Once, I dreamed of being an influencial, tech-savvy corporate warrior... A suave, tech-talking, smooth-walking, semantics-playing, regression-testing, keyboard-punching, monitor-staring, network-architecting, name-calling, bluetooth-wearing techno-freak!

But now though, I couldn't care for anything else, except to live a normal life, sleeping on normal hours, doing normal inane things, like talking about, nonsense, sometimes whimsical topic items.

Having a conversation over coffee on something quaint like flipping pancakes, boiling an egg, re-arranging the furniture, driving the car until you run out of gas, walking for hours in the rain, cracking my knuckles until it hurts, waving goodbye while sitting on the curb of a busy street, flying a kite, whistling a tune, tossing in bed, playing with my kids, drinking off the milk carton, scooping sand then flailing it to the ocean, reading a good book, polishing my shoe, scrubbing the floor, surfing the boob-tube, reading a comic book, stacking up boxes, watching the sunset, cursing across empty space, getting a hi-five, giving a hi-five, counting the hours, or just planning the next stupid grocery lists...

You know, simple shit like that...

Sigh... I wish life could be as it once was....

Oh, well - back to reality D... Crap! I needed those infrastructure designs an hour ago... wtf is this guy doing?!?! I swear risk architects are the biggest frigging drama queens you'd ever work with!!!

Half Baker's dilema

Most of the time, I find myself cooking up half baked business ideas and making it rich...

Then, I burst forth with adrenaline about a dose of pointless researching, statistical analysis, cross indexing, until finally, I convince myself the same two possibilities that I ended with on the my last half-baked idea:

(1) It will work, but it requires much time, commitment, and of course capital.
(2) IT WON'T WORK...

Seriously, who amongst us have even began to take the "risks" and just blindly run with the stuff we concoct?

Half baked ideas are only good if your at your wits end (i.e. you got sacked, or your co-workers rat you out that you we're moonlighting with the competition...) and have nothing to loose...

I know it could just be because, due to all those time of countless hours of brain-washing session we call school years... we all got that insidious fear of risking it all for something uncertain...

It not only takes courage and prudence to switch your realities at a snap of a finger. Sometimes, it also requires something not quite easily given out.... yep, you guessed it... Faith

A dose of self inflicted bitch slapping

I just got recently got the biggest wake-up call this time around in my professional life...

No longer will I be basing my self-judgement on my previous accomplishments, merits, awards or job position...

Today I realized that although delivering the job is essential - it is no longer enough of a qualifier to say that you've done the job well.

For me, now, it is the process and the manner of how you deliver the requested matter that really counts.

In the not so distant past, I proudly celebrated how I managed to elevate myself, and my professional career to where it is now - on the "egotistical" grounds that I'm simply smarter, stronger, faster, and more ambitious than anyone else in my age group.

I never give any thoughts on the fact that wisdom is not something that comes in a packaged, pre-cooked, just pop it in a microwave oven sort of a deal and you're set for the next challenge sort of stuff...

Thinking back, I felt as if I lost track of the reality that life isn't about who's ahead, but about how you enjoy the ride, and in the process, constantly take notes on opportunities for improving yourself no matter how small it may seem...

Growing up, I recall, that I wasn't always concerned about those things. I was predominantly there for the"thrill" factor... the rush that you get by being the first one to finish the test exam (with flawless scores of course!), or being the first on the honor roll list, or some stupid thing like that....

I desire competition, for the shallow reason that I can later on mock the other fellow once I crossed the finish line first and leave him/her sucking down dirt and fumes...

It's basically an immature aspect in my personality that I've just recently found to be extremely repulsive... Something, that at this point, I am not very much proud of.

I've cut-corners, lied, cheated, and bribed my way if I have to, just to stay ahead of the pack...

In the past, its only about, me coming up on top, or me being the first at this thing and that... pathetic... I know.... but yes, I am, for the most part, guilty as charged...

Having this realization at this point of my professional life is proving to be a big drag... because now, I'm constantly doubting myself, my judgement, my call....

No longer the trigger happy, maveric cowboy, the "know-all-coz-I-am-the-best" kind of an attitude...

I slump back, trying to evaluate and sometimes, re-evaluate every angle in everything that I do now... sometimes, I even find myself struggling with efficiency, simply because now, I take an extra time to come up with a decision...

Is that a bad thing?

In the end though... like what that great saying goes... "Let none but history judge me..."

At least that what it looks like from where I am now...

**Big friggin' sigh!

Scare Bear

AH1N1 cases totalled 447 today.

Just want to call out the fact that besides being blindly terrified of this bug, I'm just totally mortified of the thought that after working hard in the office, tucking my shoes, coming home from work -- I could very well be passing the virus, unknowingly to my loved ones (especially my kids), who'se come to answer the door and excitedly plants me a well deserved kiss!

And what is the fucking deal with this old saying "well, when its your time...."...????

I really hate the fact that some old-fart, wittered bastard blasted out such idiotic nonsense, probably at the dawn of his remaining soddy, pathetic life on this planet, and found an entire society reciting his mantra like it was something so natural to accept!

Such idiotic ideas are really what's making this entire pandemic scene play out for the worst --- people totally intolerant of other people's lives...

Sure, it's a pathetic, and honestly so, quite catchy of a phrase sort of a claim to your reason, but think about it... Kids are the only real victims on every pandemic/epidemic crisis that's broken out since man decided to come of age...

And no, I don't give pity if you're old, gray, and just decided to tell me that "when it's your time, its your time..." you pathetic piece of sordid crap!

Another rant on the economic fall-out

Trying your best to survive in the midst of the global economic fall-out can be a daunting task indeed.

In fact, it is little known that the best place to be right now is here - Mi Patria Adorada!

The US economy, still buckling from financial distress, posted a 12% unemployment rate (YTD). This was never before seen on US soil even during the market crash of the '80s, some say that the continuing effects might be even bigger than the great depression of the 1930's.

The European union is sadly on the same boat. With the exception of the United Kingdom, the average unemployment rate in Europe is tapering up at 8% (YTD); UK posting 7% unemployment.

Compare all this with what the Philippine unemployment rate is at present (13.2%) and you very quickly realize that life in this 3rd World country isn't that bad after all.

Of course, no one knows what the figures would look like once the global economy swings in the up and up - but at this point, we should not be in any position to complain.

The reality is, the Philippine market, although battered, bruised, and has been in the intensive care unit since the last Asian financial fall-out of the '90s - is proving to be resilient primarily due to one factor --- our labor force.

The Philippines is known for it's westernized culture. With the country's 98% literacy rate, and the english language being a secondary language. We got what it takes to secure our place in the BPO race.

The one thing that troubles me though, is the fact that the country is showcasing Filipino labor as cheap labor - which should never be the case.

Filipinos in general, tired of the hard life, will accept anything that comes their way, as long as its enough to simply bring food on the table.

As a technologist, it's really a bitter pill to swallow, knowing that specialized expertise in the IT industry in other parts of the world is fetching much more than what they are offering us.

Indian's didn't do much to help clear this out by the way...

I remember that I once came across a statistic that for every Filipino Engineer, you get at least 2-3 Indian Engineers....

Although I am in no position to comment on their economic processes, I feel that they are doing an injustice to Asian technologist world-wide. I don't want to go on a lecturing rampage, because as you may know, I am partly biased

So, I decided to take it into myself, to pull no stops in developing my skills and expertise, as long as I can, and as prudent as I can so that when push comes to shove, I will bargain for something that I truly feel I'm worth for...

The employment market in the country is a sham... this I know, but, like what the great Warren Buffet once said - "Opportunity comes when you let it in..."

I understand if you feel that I idea like this is egotistic... but let's face it... who wouldn't want to get the dues that's right for them?

People under estimate their worth sometimes that for the sake of securing a job, they would let negotiations drag them to the ground.... and still they'd put their John Hancock on the dotted line... Pity really...

On piece of advise that my mentor told me (which was actually my boss on my very first job) does me good... and it goes like this....

"Assess yourself, find out what your strengths are and re-enforce them,
then find out what your weaknesses are and set goals to turn them around...
but most importantly, find out what your most passionate on... then pull no
stops and work your ass off to pursue them until the soreness and pain,
hurts no more....

Then, when the moment is right, bring all that you have on the
negotiation table and watch them fight amongst themselves for you..."

Bosses are like an inspirational book... They're full of insight and wisdom... you just have to develop your reading habits....

Keep learning the lessons in life... you've got an entire lifetime to do it anyway!!! =)

Sighting hope...

Another week is almost over.

I'm still reeling from the stress and anxiety that started last week.

I almost totally missed out on my deliverables on one of my big projects!

I wanted this project to be my ice breaker; my launch pad, my opportunity to get on to the firm's top brass' radar. So you can just imagine how big of a deal this thing is to me - watching project deliverables impact project milestones in a tightly scheduled deal is not for the faint hearted... Especially if the project would impact operations... And swings to the tune of $ 3.7 Million in possible losses....

It's like being subjected to re-runs of Aga Mulach's 'Oki Doki Dok' day in and day out on your holiday break. It's a hellish nightmare....!

What disgusts me the most is the fact that it's partly due to my own doing.

I was over confident.

I was complacent.

I was a fool.

There comes a time, when managing people meant that you scratch their back, and expect that they scratch yours - but times have changed since then.

I think it's time to seriously re-evaluate my management approach. In fact, I think it's time to show them who's boss. Shift gears. Lick the five's... Bring the noise, dammit...!

Being a newbie doesn't really give you much help. Especially in an organization as big and as prestiguous as this...

I figure, I could extend the 'honeymoon phase' ever-so-slightly, since, I'm still testing much of the water in the firm.

...didn't really felt comfortable working with virtual teams and people whose already in the industry even before I graduated primary school.

But enough is enough - I need to re-organize and center myself, if I want to stay on top of things. If I want to stay in control...

*Big sigh...

Been in a depression since coming down with the flu last week. The pressures at work didn't really give me enough reason not to.

A lot of things comes to my mind. Stuff at work... Stuff at home... Generally everything else that's going on with me right now feels all in shambles... Lost...

I even tried to analyze (well, over-analyze) my decision of coming back home... I really think I should've done more reflection on this particular decision... It's not that I am not happy with my job right now... It's just that, certain factors which are incidental with my present job distorts my life at the moment - like being in a perpetual graveyard shift for instance... That kind of shit can ruin a man, you know...

Looking back with what happened this week, I'd like to sum it up with the words my boss gave me today during our one-on-one meeting....

"don't get yourself too chalked up about any situation, especially if you're hosed down, because then, you really don't have the capacity to evaluate yourself.... Just take a step back; push back if you need to... And never, ever, come up with a decision simply because the situation calls for it... It's always desirable to cover your ass, if you know all the facts and options up front..."

--- classic power suit advise!!!

Just the thing I need to jolt me up and get me moving again... Sei la vie...

Joined Another PTC

I joined another PTC program today - its called Neobux...

This is actually brought on by my apparent success with my previous PTC account on bux.gs...

So far, Bux.gs has credited my about a $ 0.25 for 2 days worth of clicking ads- not really a lot, but at least I'm turning something idle into cash - my ADSL connection.

I'm not really putting much attention to this at the moment, I'm still on a wait and see mode.

Neobux and Bux.gs along with most PTC Sites are working on the same platform - you click an advertisement and earn, you refer another person to join, and when they click an ad, you also earn... It's a simple revenue sharing scheme than anyone can try...

I figure, since I'm basically living on the internet (thanks to my job) anyway and it's not costing me anything to join it's just another task I could easily fit in on my daily grind...

So far, it's taken me around 5 minutes to complete the click through for both...

I mean, really, if I could spend that 5 minutes (per day) into an income generating activity, regardless of the measly payout, I figure, it would have given me a better insight with the ageless proverb --- 'time is gold' =)

Actually, if you think about it, 5 minutes a day, is really not that much... I mean, what can you really do in 5 minutes? Finish a cigarette? Snooze the alarm clock? Relieve yourself? Brush your teeth? Send a fax document?

But what if you could turn that 5 lousy minutes into a positive income for yourself, I'd say, what the heck... I'll try anything once anyway...

So, there you go... Why not try turning 5 minutes of your time into income...

All you need to do, is register either with Neobux or Bux.gs and use some of your time for something meaningful - like earning for once... They say that time basically is constant for everyone... the only difference is what you do with yours...

Earning Opportunities from home

Wow, it has really been a while since my last post.

Anyway, just wanted to tell you guys all about one of my discoveries.

I'm actually looking at cashing in with some online programs as so many of my contemporaries do at the moment.

I tried joining in a couple of programs based on the following preferences:

Joining should be free
Does not include selling services or products
Totally 100% scam free - this is based on the available reviews, commentaries available online
Proof of Pay outs from other online earners.

Anyway, based on the above, I tried joining this one for paid advertisements and here for affiliate marketing prorams...

Simply register and start earning away!!!

Try joining now and we can take the journey together....

I'll post more on my progress on these shortly...